Bullying | My Story

This has been a post I've wanted to write for ages. I have already talked on my blog about anxiety and other things related.  (all posts will be linked below)
I'd like to state that before you read on, I am not trying to make ANYONE feel sorry for me. In fact that's the last thing I want, I would rather someone look at it as me being stronger.

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Ermm, I really don't know where to start off..
At the age of around 10 (year 5) was my first experiences of bullying. I know it's such a young age and such a confusing one. Kids did minor things at the beginning - like hide my pencil case, but things got worse.  There are 2 things that happened during primary school that I distinctively remember. One was when I started to ride my bike to school and the kids kept slashing my tires, and then eventually take bits off it so I couldn't get home. Another was when I was bought a brand new coat, and brought it to school. I remember I couldn't find it (usually it was on the clothes peg). I eventually found it stuffed down a toilet.

I then started secondary school. I remember being kind of confident in my first year and made a nice group of friends, but that didn't last long. In year 8 I think I was going through that awkward puberty/growing up stage. I had braces, really bad spots, frizzy hair and was tall and skinny. My nice little group of friends suddenly decided they didn't like me (I didn't know why) and then I realized I had no friends at school. I was devastated. The girls started to get nasty, calling me names and my whole class made me feel like I was a monster. What did I do to deserve it? I just wished one of them would stand up for me and just be a friend. I used to go to the library on my lunch breaks because I couldn't deal with any of the bullys during my break.

I used to have to get a school bus and the name calling carried on there. Not only did the girls pick on me, but so did the boys. They would enjoy deliberately sitting next to me pointing out everything they found ugly about me. I felt so low. The school bus got so bad that I used to find it hard to sleep at night, because I was worried about getting the bus in the morning. There was one nasty girl on the bus that used to push me around and actually chucked water on me just as I got onto the bus. I eventually couldn't take it anymore from that particular girl and had a fight with her. I just snapped, she knew she could pick on me without a reaction, but I had enough.


Between the age of 12-14 I was made to believe that no one liked me because of the way I looked. I was always nice to people, and treated people how I would want to be treated. I moved classes in year 10 and was starting to grow up and mature. I made a whole new group of friends, who were much nicer that the other girls. I started to meet up with friends out of school, no more lunch breaks in the library for sure. I felt like people were actually getting to know me. I am still friends with many of those people to this day! The last two years of school were much more enjoyable. Of course I got the odd comment from people, but everyone had matured.

After school I went to college and gladly didn't suffer from any bullying. I actually loved college. I started my first job in a shop and made some some lovely friends there. And I've had 2 jobs since then (I've worked since 17)

Because I was bullied for silly things in the past I am always protective of myself. I have learnt that if you're getting bullied at work (which people don't usually talk about) There are unions etc. that can fight your case. You DO NOT have to put up with it. For any of you dealing with that.
Bullies are always looking for a reaction, either to entertain other people or to make them feel better about themselves. I think it's really sad and pathetic to bully.
I don't want to dote onto the sympathy vote here, but I am left with having to deal with anxiety. I never got anxious before the bullying started. I sometimes wish that those people who were so nasty could realize what they did, but then I'm glad to never see them again. They've probably matured and are different people now.

I would like to say that I am becoming such a confident person now. I have done things I never thought I could do before. I have learnt that looks aren't everything, as you get older most people don't care what you look like, personality does make a person. I have made loads of friends, and think I can actually get a bit headed at times (overload on selfies much) If any of you reading this are going through that awkward ugly teenager age, please check out this link ;) CLICK HERE
Also if you're at school (i've already said this before), school does't last forever,and you'll be laughing about it when you're older!!

Phew that's a lot off my chest!
Thanks so much for reading!

Love Laura 


Related posts I've written;

Don't feel insecure about the way you look 
Don't live in the past
Be the better person
Dealing with anxiety
Fake confidence
How to achieve positive thinking

33 comments

  1. So brave of you to write this post, Laura. It's amazing how mean some kids can be. I hope that those people have now matured and realised that what they did was wrong. It's good to hear that you're feeling more confident now too :)

    IAmLinderella.blogspot.co.uk

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    1. Thank you! I know kids are so cruel x

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  2. I'm proud of you for writing this, I know it must have been hard for you. I agree that once people hit year 10 people mature, this is the year that I found my true friends. I'm happy to hear things are getting better for you, and hopefully people who are being bullied can read this and know that it won't last forever. Stay strong x

    daisy-drops

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  3. Very brave of you to talk about this, thank you for sharing.

    I hope it helps someone somewhere :)

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  4. Very brave and obviously such tough cookie now. Good for you xxx
    http://marianoell217.blogspot.co.uk
    x Maria x

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    1. Yep I'm a much stronger and different person now! xx

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  5. Thank you for sharing your story, I bet it must be a lot that has been lifted off your chest. I can relate to you because I have been bullied too, and it got to a point where you end up standing up for yourself and saying enough is enough. I have learned to love myself and not care about what anyone thinks. I respect you a lot for sharing your story so thank you :)
    I have a blog post on my blog for people who are being bullied or for people who bully it's called 'How much has your bin been filled?' & it would be nice to get feedback of what you think as you have been bullied. Would mean a lot, thank you
    lots of love,
    http://sensitiveepidermis.blogspot.co.uk/

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    1. Yep it's a little closure for me, but then I haven't thought about the bullying I had for a long time! Ye sometimes it takes that one time to just say NO and stand up for yourself. The older I get, the less I care!! I will defo check out that post (going straight to read it after writing this)
      Thank you so much for your feedback xx

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  6. I experienced something very similar to your story! I have never come across someone who has experienced something so similar , so in a way I am finally relived that I can related to someone. So thank you for posting your story! You are brave and 1000 times worth them bullies. You are beautiful inside and out. This post will truly help someone out there who is going through bullying right now!
    Well done for having the courage to post this beautiful lady! :)
    Ava xox
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    1. Thank you so much for your response. Wow it's kind of interesting that you've had a similar experience, I hope everything is ok with you now :) xx

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  7. Oh Laura your story moved me so much, I felt very choked up reading it. Not only must that have taken some real guts to relive all you went through, but to share it here on your blog was equally amazing of you; I'm sure it will help many, many girls out there who have/are experiencing the same awful things.

    I had some really bitchy 'friends' that made me miserable at school and college; the sort that laugh behind your back but in your face also (if you get what I mean) and that was hard enough, so I can only imagine what you went through and for that I'm so sorry.

    Can I just say, what a beautiful, courageous girl (inside and out) you are! Not only do you sound so strong and brave; you always come across as kind, sweet and good natured in all your posts. I hope you're very proud of yourself and how far you've come, you certainly have every right to be.

    I have the feeling you're going to go very far in life no matter what you turn your hand to, and accomplish things far greater than any of those bullies could ever wish to contemplate. Go you!

    Sophie xo soinspo

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    1. Yea I know what you mean by the whole "behind your back, but in your face" situation!
      and wow thank you Sophie, that's really sweet - you are too!!!
      You are such a motivational person!


      Thank you so much for your support! xx

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  8. Love your story!! School can be so hard. Kids are so mean! It's great you are stronger and more confident now though!! :) Good luck with everything you do! Love your blog! I just followed!

    http://ncolesnotes.blogspot.com

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    1. aww thankyou :)
      Ye I think school is horrible for MANY people :/ x

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  9. Ow wow dear! I totally get what you mean and how you feel. I have been through the same thing. It's horrible but you talk about it is really, really strong. You are the better person and you are going to go far! I am sure about it!

    www.writingmonique.com

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    1. It is horrible, but I'm trying to look at it as a "part of life" lol xx
      Aw thankyou that's really sweet - fingers crossed xx

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  10. Really admire you for sharing your story, I believe that the phase that you went through will truly make you a stronger person! Well done for sharing this, your someone younger girls can really look up to x

    Jess xx
    New post up at www.momentsofbeautywars.blogspot.co.uk

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  11. Wow. What a brave thing to write about. I can still hardly think about some of my school days. I absolutely hated school, and looking back all I wish is that I made different friends! I so understand all of this, and I know it's going to help so many people.

    Honestly, I have become so much happier now. I'm so different from when I was in school. So much more self-confident, and I'm so glad you are too!

    This post is amazing, Laura!

    Christina
    http://kissesandflowers.blogspot.com/

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    1. aw that's good to hear! Thank you :) X

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  12. It's amazing you could share your story like this, you're really strong :) It's sad that bullying happens so often, no one should have to go through something like that.
    It's a great idea to write about one's problems, it not only gets things off your chest, like you said, but it's also very helpful for others who have the chance to read it :).

    Lipstick and Mocha

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  13. Hi lovely! I just wanted to say how much I like your blog, it's so cute. I'm your new follower :) have a great day xx

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  14. This is a beautifully brave post and one that I truly admire. I was badly bullied back in school so this post really resonates deeply in my heart.

    Thank you for sharing and for the uplifting message!!

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    1. aw no problem, that means a lot :) x

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  15. Sounds awful what you went through. You seem similar to me in that you've attracted a lot of nasty people for no reason and I'm glad you've come out of it stronger :)
    Megan x | MeganRoisinn

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    1. exactly, I still have no idea why xx

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  16. I'm sorry that happened to you, sounds really bad. I was bullied when I was really young (6-8) and it really knocked my confidence and made me very anxious. But I think that at least one good thing about the experience is that it made me want to be a good person and make others happy. You've got a great blog btw, some really interesting posts xx

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  17. Just come across your blog and think this post is brilliant. It's great you have been able to share your experiences with others so people won't feel so alone. http://www.mylittlebookofstyle.co.uk/

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  18. Brilliant blog Laura! And oh so brave! Well done!!! I too used to get bullied at school because of how small I was. I used to get pushed onto the floor in the playground, pushed into the deep end at swimming lessons (which is why I can't swim and hate when people grab me next to the sea or pool)... We had dancing lessons and no one would want to dance with me, so I used to be left in the corner. I cried nearly everyday. Oh and yes the whole pencil case thing, they used to snatch it and take it home saying it was theres. I know exactly how you feel and it is not at all nice. It's funny how they have now seen me on Facebook and send me friend requests telling me how I look amazing and gorgeous I look... They all look like 40 odd now!!!!! I just laugh at it.... Be strong Laura! I can sooooooooo relate to you! x

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